"Well family this is my last week here in the Oregon Portland
mission
kinda crazy. Don't understand it. I'm tired
for sure. I have learned a
lot of life lessons some I
don't even understand why I went through
the trials
that I did. And others it's perfectly clear. This is just a
weird email to be typing time went by fast and slow but
defiantly
faster than anything else. This week I had
the opportunity to see the
cha's and Ing family they
are from Woodburn. Sis.cha was like no way
it's only
felt like six months since you left. I assured her it had
been 18 months :) we talked about change and the atonement
and
baptism's and everything it was great to catch
up. Then I started
thinking about my knowledge of the
scriptures and just how much change
has
happened.
Anyways going
on to Tuesday we had a couple lessons then we went on
splits I went with good ol brother Johnson one of the funniest
guys in
the ward. we had three lessons fall through
so he was like let's go
get a blizzard and he talked
about his mission and how much change he
saw in
himself and how good it was for him.
Then Wednesday rolls around and we are with our WML and he
brings it
up holy cow you have less then a week and a
half. Thanks man:) ha it
was good to talk to him and
just talk about the life lessons that have
changed
the way I view things. It's just weird how much you grow and
learn. I think once principle I have learned a ton about is
just
forgiveness either it's for me or my companion
or me again. Or members
just tons of things you make
everyday choices either to forgive or not
and it will
have an impact on whether your friends with them or not.
The Lord forgives those who forgive. Sometimes it's so dang
hard to be
humble and repent but once it's over it's
fine you feel better that
person feels better and you
know you did the right thing. And
sometimes you don't
even mean to hurt feelings but the other person is
totally offended. That's when you have to rely on The Lord and
just
act as he would and repent with a full heart. I
know it's hard but if
you need to apologize to
someone do it. You will never regret it and
it will
add to your testimony, promise.
Well moving onto Thursday today we had the opportunity to have
a
little weekly planning and to call a lot of people
and try to set up
lessons and we have a lot of
lessons set up finally so that will be
good. The life
lesson I learned today would probably just to know how
kind God is. He truly knows us it's weird to think yeah there
are so
many children we think, "oh how can he know me
there are so many
people?" Sometimes Heavenly Father
answers my questions before That
question comes to
mind. I know God is kind. He has forgiven me and
will
continue to forgive me. Even though we feel like we suck
sometimes we screw up. But this life is about progression
not
perfection. So keep your head up God didn't
provide a savior for us
for no reason. Use that
atonement that he performed for us.
Friday what a joy I went on an exchange with elder mike Johnson
a good
friend of mine. We saw a lot of curve balls
and knuckle balls today. A
man walked up to us and
all he could Talk about is pornograpghy & sex.
He
was so engulfed in it. It was disgusting it was hard to see some
one have all of that and not want to rid themselves from it. So
this
is the lesson I learned today is you must "Look
in the situation
slowly."kinda like baseball you have
to look in he pitch slowly! This
experience he did
not want to give it up satan, satan had ahold of his
mind and his will. So as we look situations that might seem
harmless
will lead us down trails we should not
travel. He did not truly
understand why we are here
on earth! It is to come closer to our
eternal maker.
I wish I would have kept a journal of the life lessons
I learn daily I would have had 730 I have less because I've
forgotten
some. I'm just thankful for my savior and I
read this a couple days
and it came into my head as I
was typing so I felt like I should
share.
Enos 1:4-8
4 And my soul hungered;
and I kneeled down before my Maker, and I
cried unto
him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul;
and all the day long did I cry unto him; yea, and when the
night came
I did still raise my voice high that it
reached the heavens.
5 And there came a voice unto
me, saying: Enos, thy sins are forgiven
thee, and
thou shalt be blessed.
6 And I, Enos, knew that God
could not lie; wherefore, my guilt was swept away.
7
And I said: Lord, how is it done?
8 And he said unto
me: Because of thy faith in Christ, whom thou hast
never before heard nor seen. And many years pass away before he
shall
manifest himself in the flesh; wherefore, go
to, thy faith hath made
thee whole.
Talk to him The Lord is kind as we are humble and seek
him.
Saturday ah Saturday
today we had two lessons his morning. Then we
went
out to lunch with Oregon city second elders. Elder dunshee and
elder Lewis they are goofy and just funny weird but they grow
on you
ha:) today I learned how valuable true
friends, real friends just put
things in to
perspective. I'm thankful for true friends because they
are not afraid to put you straight and give you the answer
that
sometimes you don't want to hear. But you will
always heed to your
true friends council. I received
a priest hood blessing this week and
how thankful I
am for my friends holding the priesthood just as the
apostles of old. Tonight we had the opportunity to go to a
baptism and
how cool it is to see people to make an
eternal covenant with God.
Thankful for covenants
that we make because covenants brings
blessings. The
temple is such a sacred place. Thankful for it. Well
this is my last week of being a missionary I'm just going to
treat it
like I have been out a year. It still hasn't
hit me yet. Onto Sunday
:)
Oh good ol Sunday well bishop ask
me to bear my testimony today. There
are so many
things I can bear my testimony on. How about a mission how
about I bear it on my mission. Missions might not be your first
choice
if you have scholarships if you have a job. If
you have just a bunch
of opportunities of worldly
things. But this is your one chance your
one
opportunity to wear his name for two years. We are so indebted to
him, I am so indebted to him. I may not be perfect but I'll
always try
to be progressing. Because I know he
doesn't need perfection right now
but I do know he
needs my will and my heart and everything else I can
give him and he can save my soul. Missionary work is hard. It's
even
harder when your going through trials. It's even
harder when you are
rejected and struggling win your
testimony. So I guess my simple
testimony that I have
earned in the past 24 months is just that
Heavenly
Father needs for us to go through hard times to see how much
we really love him to see how strong we are. But he wants to
see where
we will turn when we fall will we turn to
the dark and ignore God or
at our weakest state will
we be humble enough to ask God for help. Ask
him
prayerfully that we may have safety for our souls. My mission has
provided me the tools and capabilities for safety for my soul
and for
that I am eternally grateful for my
companions that gave up two years
to save my life. My
mission presidents have given up three years. The
members giving up hours out of there day and weeks to come out
to
teach and visit. For this I'm grateful for a great
change has been
written on my heart. I know that
Christ lives. I know that pain that
he felt when the
nails went through his hands and feet were for me. I
am eternally grateful for his service and the atonement he
preformed
for me.
Alma
7:11-14
11 And he shall go forth, suffering pains and
afflictions and
temptations of every kind; and this
that the word might be fulfilled
which saith he will
take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his
people.
12 And he will take upon him
death, that he may loose the bands of
death which
bind his people; and he will take upon him their
infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy,
according to
the flesh, that he may know according to
the flesh how to succor his
people according to their
infirmities.
13 Now the Spirit knoweth all things;
nevertheless the Son of God
suffereth according to
the flesh that he might take upon him the sins
of his
people, that he might blot out their transgressions according
to the power of his deliverance; and now behold, this is the
testimony
which is in me.
14 Now I say unto you that ye must repent, and be born again;
for the
Spirit saith if ye are not born again ye
cannot inherit the kingdom of
heaven; therefore come
and be baptized unto repentance, that ye may be
washed from your sins, that ye may have faith on the Lamb of
God, who
taketh away the sins of the world, who is
mighty to save and to
cleanse from all
unrighteousness. Well I'm on my last week I have to
push myself. Thanks for being so steadfast and being an example
to me
I love each of you. You probably know
that.
With that I would like to say Thank you to
everyone that has supported
me. Those who have said
prayers for me and fasted for me thank you for
all
you do.
Love from a servant of The Lord"